Thursday, August 1, 2024

The Doll

 


[Since last month's post was about writing, and this story was referenced, I thought I'd post it here. This was written for my first major course in Writing. I wa 18, so keep that in mind.]    


     Her name was Holly. She was born on Christmas Eve, and although she had ruined her parents' plans for that evening, they managed to forgive her for that. Then they named her in the true spirit of Christmas.

            She was now six, that novel age when she was "Mommy's big girl" while still remaining "Daddy's little angel". She was a vibrant child. Everything about her seemed radiant, including her long, brown hair that glistened red in the sun.

            She wore green well and almost exclusively; that was her mother's way of keeping Christmas around her all year long. Many of Holly's dolls wore pretty dresses of red or blue, but none dressed like Holly except one: her Christy-Anna doll. Christy was not only Holly's favorite doll, but she was also her best friend. Christy listened like none of the other dolls when Holly spoke – so Holly told everyone – and always had something nice to say. But Holly only reluctantly admitted that she had to pull a string to make Christy talk.

            Holly lived a very happy life with her dolls when she wasn't too busy entertaining her invisible friends at imaginary parties.  She was happy with her parents, too – when they weren't too busy entertaining their real friends at real parties. Like her mother, Holly often told her doll that if she were good, she'd get a piece of cake; then Holly would rush upstairs and try very hard to go to sleep.

            The Andersons were well known for their parties.  Their friends often envied their ability to entertain well. The Andersons, of course, enjoyed their popularity as much as children do.

            The day after a party, however, was usually a bad one for Christy.

            "Can't you ever do what I ask?" Holly would demand in sleepless irritability.  "You always have to make noise, don't you?  You always want the spotlight. Well, you're nothing but a brat. You'll learn that the parties I give are mine. You'll learn – you'll spend the day in your room." Then Holly would slap the doll's face.

            "Mama," the doll cried automatically.

            "Don't think crying will get you anywhere," Holly answered.  "You're a bad girl. You're no good at all."

            "I love you, Mama," the doll responded, and the worn record made it sound like the doll was crying.

            "I don't love you anymore," Holly said, then began beating the doll with anger unusual for a child her age.

            Poor Christy-Anna! When she was good, she was Holly's most beloved doll, but when she displeased Holly, she bore the brunt of the child's rage. Yet, for all the beatings the doll received, it still said, "I love you, Mama."

            Of late, the doll had stopped talking much. The string didn't always work. This annoyed Holly. She couldn't tolerate Christy being like the other mute dolls she had.

            "If you're not going to say anything, then go away," Holly said. But the doll remained in its place. Holly went about her work, ignoring Christy completely. Finally, Holly turned to the doll.

            "I'm going to have another party. This time, you're not going to ruin it for me."

            Actually, the doll never did anything to ruin Holly's parties.  She was very good, but some of Holly's friends became quite loud, disturbing the doll's sleep. An accidental cry of "Mama!" would send Holly into a rage, even though accidents of this sort often happen to talking dolls.

            Holly could be quite charming to her friends at a party, but coming back to the realities of life the next day had devastating effects on her. Days like that made Holly hate the doll. But then Holly would realize that her troubles were not entirely the doll's fault, and she would try to make things up to her.

            "Let's see my big girl smile," Holly said, hugging her doll.

            Together the girl and the doll would take imaginary shopping trips, and as far as Holly was concerned, things were all right again.

            Holly had another party, but this time things were worse than usual. One of Holly's imaginary friends got out of hand, and Christy, unfortunately, was not well. Holly was quite embarrassed, and the party ended early.

            The following morning found Holly out of sorts, a pounding headache adding to her tiredness. Poor Christy-Anna, who had, until then, looked like a normal worn doll, took such a beating that Holly's hands were sore.

            "You're not sick, you bad thing!" Holly shouted. "You've ruined everything. I hate you, Christy-Anna, I hate you! I wish I never had you."

            Holly beat the doll unmercifully. When she finished the doll looked frightful. The tangled brown hair fell over its face, the wrinkled green dress was torn, and the arms and legs flailed about with every blow.

            Finally exhausted, Holly threw the doll on the floor. As it hit the floor, it cried, "Mama," perhaps for the last time. That infernal squeaking voice!

            "Shut up!" Holly said, shaking the doll, and banging it against the floor. The doll was silent, and the blue eyes closed.  Satisfied, Holly left the doll lying on the floor, and went off to do her work.

 

            "Hi, hon," Tom Anderson said. "You look beat."

            "Oh, I've been cleaning up after that party," his wife answered. "Brad Quinton will never be invited here again after the mess he caused last night."

            "I agree. Where's Holly?"

            "Upstairs. Do you know that fake wasn't sick last night after all? She just wanted attention. And to make matters worse, this morning she broke that stupid doll,"

            He stood looking at her oddly for the comment. Why was she talking about a child's doll? It made no sense, and didn't explain the anger he'd heard in her voice – the sudden realization of the reality beyond the words pushed through the years of denial.

            "My God!" he said, horrified, as he dashed upstairs.

            When he reached the room, he found Holly on the floor where her mother had left her, still squeaking "Mama." He scooped her up, and laid her on the bed as he looked pityingly at her battered body. He pushed her hair from her doll face.

            His wife watched, unmoved, from the doorway. "I told you you never should have given her that doll," she said.

 

 

                                                                          END

                                                                          1973


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